Do you know what blows my mind about the human race? Particularly the female variety? It's our uncanny ability to let the negative and hurtful things that happen, mess with us to the core, even to the point of overriding the blessings.
For example, say I have 380 friends, but I find out that one person doesn't exactly think that I'm worth sharing air with and, suddenly, I start to believe that I must be the most annoying person in the world.
Or what about the soul who gets a zillion compliments, but if one person says something nasty, THAT'S the thing he/she believes. Why is that?
I am so guilty of it. I can't tell you anything else about my 3rd grade year except that the leader of the "popular clique" decided that I "had too many barrettes in my hair", so because I looked funny, they wouldn't be talking to me anymore. I recognize it for what it is now, but why is it, at 33 years old, I can still recall it like it was yesterday?
There are plenty more things like that permanently glued to my brain, but if you ask me to tell you what was said to me on my wedding day? I. can't. remember.
What is that about?
It's rejection and it completely STINKS. There is no one who is immune from it either. I don't know one single person who hasn't felt the sting of it. It hurts and it sticks with us whether we like it or not.
I would like to think of it as being something that was left back in the halls of the Jr. High Schools that we all attended, but that's so far from the truth. I can name 5 people, without giving it much thought, that are dealing with the pain of this right this minute. It's really all around us, and it makes me so sad. Why don't people consider how their choices make others feel? Especially when we have all felt like crap over other people's choices...
I have already mentioned that I have been the rejected, yet I have been guilty of being the rejecter, too. My prayer tonight, as this is fresh on my heart, is that I will have my eyes wide open to other's pain, no matter how small, and that I will offer the love of Christ, which we are called to, as much as possible. Whether it's a quick word of encouragement or just flat out including the excluded. Open my eyes, Lord.
Ok, I think I can go to sleep now. Thanks for letting me ramble this one off my chest.